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Tue, 20 Oct 2009 19:30:00 -0400

Some people asked me what was going on here, cause they saw some postsof me on other pages talking about painkillers and hospitals.

So I'll just explain myself righthere about what REALLY happened, the wild stories are everywhere at the moment ;-)

I already had a harsh flu going on for a whole week, high fever going between 40C. - 39C. for a couple of days already.

My ears were hurting a lot, but I didn't want to cancel my plans for some ear pains.

Still I thought driving to Amsterdam and performing on saturdaynight would be a great idea.

Once I dress up, fix the makeup and hair I can hide my illness or bad feelings in a minute and fight myself through it.

But this time it didn't work, I kinda collapsed during the party and ended up on the couch backstage.

My earpain got worse and I felt my fever coming back heavily. Suddenly my ears started to bleed, first just a bit but later on it kept on running out nonstop. I just put some cottons in it and thought I'd visit the doc "tomorrow".

I did the performance with my Bloodsquad, and thought I was going to hell afterwards.

It was like watching a muted tv, people were talking but I couldn't hear it.

I couldn't take it anymore, and the bleeding was going on and on.

It fucking creeped me out, and the firstaid people of the venue told me to go straight to the hospital RIGHT NOW.

So I went to hospital, and apparently just in time.

The doc told me I could have been deaf if I didn't drop by rightnow but tomorrow.

He found a hole in my eardrum, which could be caused by ignoring theflu, denying you got a cold and just keep going without taking goodcare of yourself. Well alright, the message was clear to me. I know I should have taken better care of me.

The hole caused an acute mid.ear infection and caused all this horrible pain and blood.

The doc gave me painkillers and antibiotics which directly started to work.

I had to drive back 1h while having these awful pain attacks in my ears, I think I never cried so much for physical pain.

Rightnow I am still deaf, I can only hear a little bit with one ear if I really focus on it.

It's not much though..

Things will all be alright but this takes time to recover.
The deafness might take another month before my hearing is back to normal, and I'll have to wear earplugs for protection of cold, noise and dirt. Lots of painkillers I popped these days to feel okay, but this way I cansurvive it pretty well :-)

The internet is so important to me these days, cause talking is really difficult.

I cannot hear myself and feel like yelling, while people tell me I amspeaking so softly, almost whispering.

I have no sense of volume at all, and I cannot understand what people say if they talk fast, soft or mumble stuff at me.

I have to read lips for now, and focus on the little bits I hear ;-)

Messages are always welcome cause it's damn lonely out here for the moment.. I hope I can leave this house soon and start enjoying the love of my life - music - again.

Kisses,

Amarantha

Update: Preview!

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 19:01:00 -0400

In the meantime I've done liveshows with the succesfull German industrial band AGONOIZE, and I can tell these shows were pretty harsh ;-) We managed to combine Agonoize's own typical bloody gore act with my fetish act and made it to a rude BDSM straightjacket show.

I guess there's no need to tell you I'm much into straightjackets VS SM? ;-) So yeah, I totally enjoyed being part of this!
Thank you Agonoize!

I will post the pictures as soon as I have a little time for it!
It was awesome to perform my show with a liveband, and especially a great band like Agonoize!
Their music and lyrics totally supported the act, which brought the message clearly to the crowd.
If you like it bloody, rude and obscene you should definetely check out these pics when they're online!

Also I've done a liveshow with my electroband ANIMADVERTO where I am dancer and performer for.
This was the first show with new material, new styling and a new theme-act matching to the sound.
The crowd was big this time, and really enthusiastic!
I haven't found any pictures of this so far, which is strange cause there were many photographers taken 'em.
I'm sure I'll run into pictures soon, and promise to post them here for you!

Also I've done a whole day of latexshooting with "Scotch & Pepper".
The designs were really amazing, they don't make average rubber clothing but real one of a kind costumes!
Two ladies with a real passion for their job fitted me into their beautiful creations, and I've worn so many pretty things!
The pictures will be up soon, but for now are still topsecret.
They will be shown on the Scotch&Pepper Website soon, but untill that moment I can only give you a very small sneak preview of the styling (Done by Stephy Starlight) here...

Soon I'll be able to post more, sweethearts!

Kisses,
Amarantha

Little tiny update

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 15:00:00 -0400

Hey there,

I'm so sorry for my lack of updating this website lately, I should have done this way more often.
The thing was that I was really hoping for my new website to be launched which will - of course- be better, bigger and much cooler than this one.
But still this didn't happen.. and it really got me badly.
I really want to surprise you people with something new, refreshing and sexy, but I'm afraid this is out of my hands for now.
I have to admit I totally suck with CSS and all that, so this website has to be created by someone else. And when depending on someone else, well.. we all know disappointments may happen.

I've seen this website growing in memberships instantly, and it surprised me cause I didn't update for ages.
Of course I'll do this asap, and make sure this is gonna be the place to be again.

Many many exciting things to write about, and I will do soon.
Now in a hurry ;-)

xxxxx

I'm back (And bad)

Fri, 10 Jul 2009 11:52:00 -0400

Hello sweeties,

I think I should apologise for the times I haven't been around here lately.
A lot of things were going on in my life, and of course I don't mind sharing them.

In the meantime I moved to another place, ended up a realtionship, been through a huge emotional struggle and finally walked the long way to find myself.
Don't you worry about me, I am doing better than ever!
Sometimes you have to jump into the deep cold water to find a warmer and better destiny.
Even though I haven't been updating this website much, I can say I haven't been sitting on the butt much ;)

Some newsflashes:
- I recently joined the band "Preverse" as their bassplayer & Backingvocalist!
- I'm working on a brandnew hot and steamy liveperformance that contains a LOT of rubber and hotness

- For this show I'm gonna work with Hollands' sexiest playmate!! (To be announced :P )
- I've done tons of photoshoots lately, you'll be the first to see results soon!

And I'm sure there is more I cannot think of rightnow..
Too many things happened in only a short period of time!
Let's stay in touch this time, and I promise I won't let you down again.

*kisses*

Being a member is fun ;)

Thu, 21 May 2009 08:17:00 -0400

Because you are a member of my website, you are getting the first previewshot of my latest photoshoot!
I thought it was time for a nice warm bath, so you'll know what it's like to bathe with me pretty soon ;)

Wanna play?

FOR SALE!

Tue, 19 May 2009 16:45:00 -0400

Hey there,

I'm cleaning out my closet because it was almost exploding while there's 90% of it I'm never wearing.. What a waste of space and money, so it's up for sale now!

There you go:

Shiny red wetlook PVC bustier "Genova" by PATRICE CATANZARO.

(New: 75 euro)

Size S (and small M) adjustable brahooks on the back and lacing up front.

The top has a boning but is not made for tightlacing at all.

The pvc is véry smooth and shiny, solid but thinner than the cheaper kind of PVC so it fits perfectly and shows off your shapes.

Optically it looks a bit like rubber when you wear it!

This bustier is def an eyecatcher!

From a set: Skirt is also available!

Pleated red miniskrt "Genova" by PATRICE CATANZARO.

(New: 70 euro)

Size S/M, skirt has a hidden zipper on the side.

Same story...

Please do reasonable offers, these are quite expensive designer items and I won't sell them for 20 euro.

(People really do the craziest offers, for example trying to get a golden necklace for 15 euro)

The clothes are all pretty new, worn them once for a short while at a photoshoot but found out it's not so much my thing.. :(

Message me if you're interested, make an offer!

(No this is not me in the pic so stop asking.. it is the sexy Diva Nova!)

Kisses,

Amarantha

Update and pics from Fashionshow!

Sat, 16 May 2009 13:13:00 -0400

Hey there,

I hope you are way more lucky than I am at the moment, it seems like I broke my toes today.
In the early morning I had a stupid accident with a massive and heavy wooden board.
It came down the wall from quite a height, and fell on my foot/toes.
Three of my toes hurt SO much, and I cannot remember any other day I've cried out so loud for physical pain as today. It feels like my foot is splitted in two, and it is for sure bádly bruised.
The toes look kinda weird, and I cannot move or use them at all so I just decided to let a doc check it up for me.
It's weekend so it's a drama to get medical care for such "innocent things".
The doc said it might be broken, but for now it's all too swollen so an Xray would be useless.
If the pain is still so bad on Monday I gotta see the doc again and get Xrays of the foot.
There is a big chance it is broken, facing the outside looks of the toes.
Let's hope there is nothing wrong inside :)
For now I can not walk and am awfully bored, this SUCKS!!

Other news:

I've received a couple of pictures of my appearance @Fetish Evolutions' Cyberesque fashionshow.

See some pictures here!

The corset I am wearing is made by CYBERESQUE ( http://cyberesque.de/ )

It's the Gili Corset from their Glitteresque collection.

Link here==> http://www.cyberesque.de/e-shop/product_info.php?cPath=40&products_id=164&osCsid=a49841e87030f856ffd66cd19f70f4af

Chaotic weekend..

Mon, 11 May 2009 07:33:00 -0400

I just received the newest Attitude Holland magazine #17, and found myself published on a couple of pages!
Luckily they've sent me some more mags to hand out to my loved ones, so I'll give you one too, Mom ;)

(She always enjoys seeing my publications)

The past days have been quite chaotic, but that's nothing new when it comes to my life.

People call you last minute to take you away to events, performances, or-what-so-ever and you just jump in the car and go with the flow. But doesn't that make life more exciting?? ;)

It's a little pity life goes on the next day, even after all that alcohol and sleep deprivation ha ha ha!

On Sunday I've been shooting with Me-Chiel in the studio again.
Of course we didn't wanna work without having our fantastic makeupartist over, so Stephy Starlight joined us to make me pretty! And hell yeah, she knows how to :D
A whole lot of ideas, a little time.. it's always like that.
And even though we actually had pretty much time, it simply wasn't enough to work out all of our crazy ideas.
But for now we've done great stuff I can tell!
I haven't seen any results on a big screen yet, but the small camera display gave me a sneak preview.
I hope to give you a preview as well soon..!

*Kiss*
Amarantha

Redhead!

Thu, 07 May 2009 10:55:00 -0400

Hello there,

I've been crazy and went to my hairdresser today to raically change my hair.
Let me tell you the full story:

I've had these wishes to become a neon-red head for so many years, but never succeeded no matter what I tried. My natural haircolour is black, which makes it hard to dye any other colour if you don't give it a bleach-treatment before. But the past 11 years I dyed my hair deep black/cosmic blue every single month.
Let's say about 125 times till today (and I'm sure even more, sometimes I redo it after two weeks as well)
That made it impossible to dye it any other colour and even bleaching didn't work at all. It was simply invisible, not even a tone lighter. So lots of frustrations, but I'm too stubborn to let it go.

Yesterday my Granny called me, cause she heard about my last week red-failure that turned out quite awful.
It was only visible at the roots, and the rest was still black. Such a waste of money and time!
A while ago I got told about some Turkish red hairdye that was made especially for women with deep black hair, it would be less damaging but much more effective.
That sounded like a miracle to me! My granny heard this too cause I told my mother about it (yes, family TALKS haha :P ) and asked me why I didn't do it right away.
"Here's the money and an appointment for tomorrow, you get your ass over to that salon now..PLEASE"

Wow that was very cool! :D
Today I had my appointment, and I was very nervous.
Not cause it might go wrong or what so ever, but I was afraid I was hoping too much for good results, and that this would turn into another disappointment like the usual.
It sounded like the perfect solution, a miracle, and even though it worked on the worst hairdo's of others, I had my doubts if this miracle was meant to be for me.

And I can finally say that I am satisfied and very happy with the new results, it is RED.
No denial possible, cars might mistake me for a trafficlight ;)

Some evidence then..

(Sorry peeps, my face is not on the pics for a reason: just cut my fringe and there was hair all over my face :P hahah couldn't do that to your eyes!)

Do you like it too? I hope you do!
I'll do a hot and sexy photoshoot this weekend, so more pics to come.. ;)

xoxoxo

Hot new images up!

Mon, 04 May 2009 19:47:00 -0400

As you might have seen the background image already, I HAVE TWO NEW PICTURES UP!
The photographs are taken by a very talented and great photographer, WOD Photography, at Club Essence.
Indeed, that was the same club where the Fetish Evolution Ball was happening!
And hell yeah this location was beautiful, so I kidnapped (or did they kidnap me? not sure.. :P) a couple of photographers, lubed up my body and slipped into my brandnew purple dress to shoot some awesomeness!

Find the newest pictures in the photography section of this website, in the WOD PHOTOGRAPHY folder!
As soon as I receive more from the photographer, I will post it and keep you updated (Promise)

Love,
Amarantha